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I know that I have been completely MIA lately and I have to apologize.

I actually made a new Tumblr because I didn’t want to look back on all of the things that happened over the past few months.  Please feel free to follow me {http://wishfulstars.tumblr.com/}

The last time I checked .. I was faithful for fucking 7 months. Give me a fucking break. I’m not a cheater and I never will be. Last time I checked .. we broke up. Just saying.

I will never let you hold me back from anything that my heart desires again.

Dear whomever is related to my ex-boyfriend:

You can quit creeping on my blog at any moment now. I’m out of your life and I’m out of your brothers so I don’t understand why you feel the need to keep up with me and my life.

The last time I checked, I’m the one who ended things. I’m the one who chose this path for my life. You can say I’m the one who’s acting like a victim but I hate to tell you, I’m far from the victim.

I’m the bad person and I really could care less. I’m living my life to make myself happy. I’m NOT sorry that I put my own personal happiness infront of your brother’s happiness. I had to do what made ME happy.

So with all do respect, don’t bother reading my blog anymore .. and if you’re going to continue tweeting about me, you might as well just tag me in that shit .. instead of acting like a coward.

His divorce was not final. It’s not even close to being final and he quite obviously doesn’t care enough for it to be final. It’s disgusting to me that he can still be married to her and just not care.

Thank you, because that honestly means the world that you are right there behind me. It took me a while but I’m glad I finally realized.

I just got home from a full day out and I couldn’t be happier. The day was filled with:

• Swimming in the pool and sitting in the hot tub.
• Longboarding in the mall parking lot.
• A trip to McDonalds.
• Watching Insidious for the first time!
• Late night swimming after the movie.

It was a good day overall. I wish I could have more like today.

I do have a few concerns about life right now, however.

Absolutely! I couldn’t agree more. I thought maybe we could keep in touch through the rest of this deployment and see what happened when he got home .. but that wasn’t good enough. My heart is in so many places right now and it’s not even funny.

I wish I could elaborate more on here but I’m sure there at least a few trolls on here who will run back and run their mouth so :) But you know you can contact me on Facebook and I will go into more detail!

Thank you so much for the support <3

I will try my best to update more! :) I know I’ve been neglecting this. I just truly think it was for the best that it ended. He wanted to so much more than I did .. and especially with the age gap, it made it even more difficult. He’s ready to settle down and I’m not, so I wish him the best of luck in finding someone who wants to settle at the age of 19. Mind you, he’s 27. So preferably someone more around his age group. I just wish things didn’t end so sour. The good thing is, his true colors were shown and I now know that he always pretty much told me things that I wanted to hear, not that he truly felt.

Kyle and I - whom I have known since elementary!

Bray and I in the middle of the day.

Beginning of the day!

{The group} Jeremy, Murfin, Braydon, Kyle and myself.

<3

So tired and so sunburnt .. after The Devil Wears Prada and A Day To Remember!